Push the Desk!

" Arun: You should rather push a desk or two."

As a youngster I was told to do just that due reasons that were a result of the best medical efforts and expertise available then in this country.
To thwart my attempt to fulfil the only dream I had ever dreamt.

Did I do that?
No! I did not.

I defied the findings and went ahead and did what exactly I had destined out to do.

Fly.
High.
Fast.
Low right from the word go.
I succeeded too.
I pushed myself to pull against the force of gravity for more than a decade plus!
Till I decided not to...and called it off!
On my own.
As I had felt then I had outgrown the challenge.

Now,as hind sight I wonder, if it was a right decision?
Though it taught me everything about precision.

As I am pushing the desk now through out the day.
Much to my chagrin.
I hate it too.
I have too...dunno why though?
As I see no other way out I am compelled too.
As I do that, I am reminded of that advice then, now and then..." Go and Push a Desk or two"
Now I am a bit reconciled to this life style but not fully.
I still yearn for challenges.
For mission impossibles.
For sharp teams.
For mean machines.
For speed...minus the weed.

Here I am pushing a desk and to make it more adventourous blogging away.
This way I get to swing and sway.
Keep the boredom at bay.
All through the day.
As pushing a desk is as good as having milk and whey!
Hey...its almost may day!
Every day.

How do I get away?
From desk pushing?
From the drudgery?
As this is like slow but sure internal injury.
A silent fury...within me.
That: only the almighty as a jury, can see.
May be once gain he is about to set me free.
As Like a grown up tree
I am also couple of scores plus three
But the spirit within does not agree
Wants me to get going again... with the hardest degree
To live a life...minus a worry.
Out there in the yonder...with the thunder.
No to to blunder
But to surrender...to living on the edge
Away from the desk pushing.
Flying high... rather than silently anguishing.
Languishing.

Soaring
Roaring
Winging
Swinging...Like I then did.
Splendid.


Arun
Alias
Axee